下沉

昨天晚上開始，心情的轉變快的連自己都不敢想像。
昨天一整天，你的回復。像是敷衍敷衍的回了兩三封就沒再回了。
你不回復我，沒關係。祇然讓我知道好嗎？你不知道有人會等嗎？沒事。這非我自尋也。
我應該學習更能一個人生活。

早上早起，去聚會。感覺心情還是一樣沉重。沒有找你。繼續忍耐。
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不說你了。。。

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煩。讀書讀不進腦。看戲網絡不夠快。找你又不回。找別人有沒有心情。一塌糊塗。無奈無奈。一點成就都沒有。廢物。

希望將自己心中的沮喪發洩出來會舒服些。

記得好好照顧自己。在你忽略的範圍裡，你將會找到我的蹤影。我期待你的到來。

i wan u.

拥有

不想多说。只要你愿意接受，没有什么事不能解决的

不能

对你真的没有感觉

做我朋友就很喜欢

不能再进一步了

 知道日久会生情

对你就只能做到好朋友

对不起

做不到



不进则退。 再见了。

Not Bad

How should I start my story.

I like a girl.

A bad girl I should say. She always wanted to be bad. To me.

She is not as pretty as models or actress.

She treat me as bad as she could.

But, she is attractive to me. She is someone I like.

It has been a year or more since I started to have crush on her. A year. So what? Those who went after her is like bunch of them and waited for years. Years! Forget it. Not the point.

All the way, I treat her good. Quite good. 

All the way, she treat me like iceberg. That's the way she treat everyone else. Unfortunately. But, she changed. Improved. Treating me better now. 

She has a habit when I requested something. 'Don't want', 'No need', 'See first', 'Nevermind' and .......

This makes me feels bad all the time. All the time. Even when I saw her in hunger and offer her to go for food, she did the same thing.I understand that there is a reason behind. But seeing her in hunger doesn't make me feels better.

Recently, I changed. I learn. Not to talk much. Learn  to be an 'Island'.

Why? Because that's the only way to protect myself from getting hurt or affected. Though I still got affected now. But I will keep trying until she treat me nicer.

Why? Because I love her. The only way to let her know how I feel and to get out of the friend zone.

The truth is. I did got less affected in terms of mood. But, I feels sorry for treating her that way.She was mad when I first being an 'Island'. Guess, she doesn't endure or tolerate me as much as I am. I am sorry.

What I want? I want you. I thought of give up on you. But, I just like you too much.

Learn to be Island

There is once you are an island too. You do not explain yourself. You keep what you think you are right where sometimes you are wrong obviously. You don't entertain others sometimes because you do not want to.

感觉

上个星期，去了西马比赛。成绩虽然不是很很很好，但是很满意了。

最后几天，在那儿看了几部连戏剧。其中，有一个男的一位家庭关系失去了父亲。然后被收养。为了报答养母的恩，任劳任怨，说什么做什么。就算不是自己愿意做的，也一样去做。

由于长时间没了自己的选择，对任何事物都不在乎，对任何东西都不抱有期望。大家都称他为Island。一个孤岛。孤独一人。不喜欢说话，不在乎任何东西。

想想。。。。

我或许顾虑太多，想要得到的东西太多。。

我应该选择放下，放下别人对自己的看法。放下顾虑对别人的感受。不容易。

特别是放下你。

学习做Island吧。 人家世界上有Philip Island，我就做Felix Island。感觉会如何？

对自己笑一笑，对别人笑一笑。开心点：）