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How should I start my story.

I like a girl.

A bad girl I should say. She always wanted to be bad. To me.

She is not as pretty as models or actress.

She treat me as bad as she could.

But, she is attractive to me. She is someone I like.

It has been a year or more since I started to have crush on her. A year. So what? Those who went after her is like bunch of them and waited for years. Years! Forget it. Not the point.

All the way, I treat her good. Quite good. 

All the way, she treat me like iceberg. That's the way she treat everyone else. Unfortunately. But, she changed. Improved. Treating me better now. 

She has a habit when I requested something. 'Don't want', 'No need', 'See first', 'Nevermind' and .......

This makes me feels bad all the time. All the time. Even when I saw her in hunger and offer her to go for food, she did the same thing.I understand that there is a reason behind. But seeing her in hunger doesn't make me feels better.

Recently, I changed. I learn. Not to talk much. Learn  to be an 'Island'.

Why? Because that's the only way to protect myself from getting hurt or affected. Though I still got affected now. But I will keep trying until she treat me nicer.

Why? Because I love her. The only way to let her know how I feel and to get out of the friend zone.

The truth is. I did got less affected in terms of mood. But, I feels sorry for treating her that way.She was mad when I first being an 'Island'. Guess, she doesn't endure or tolerate me as much as I am. I am sorry.

What I want? I want you. I thought of give up on you. But, I just like you too much.