its is not easy

i suppose to study right now. But, I cant stop thinking. Mind was a little bit lost control.

However, it will be fine. Sooner or later.

There is once a boy who get jealous so easily. A simple touch or whatsoever close move will burst him into C4 mode.  

But...

Days by day,
Hours by hour,
Minutes by minute,
Seconds by second....

He changed.

No longer cares.
No longer thinks.
No longer live with it.

He learned to accept more.
He learned to co-operate more.
He learned to...
He learned to...
He learned to...

He try, he try and he try...
He really tried.

But it is not easy.
It is not easy.
It hurts from time to time.
It hurts like there is no ending for it.

You never know the real feeling of it.
One day, when you get to feel the pain...
I wont laugh at you. I will help you to get it over.

Because there is once I loved you.

If you never get to feel that feeling, hopefully I was the one giving you the best in your life.

I am sorry that I am not that mature. I am not mature enough to take as much as it is.

Thanks. I am fine now. Gonna continue study again.
Back to my notes and study hard. For me and for you.

If you were reading this, i mean anyone. Do pray.
Lord Jesus, turn me Lord.
Turn my heart to you.
Makes me love you more and more!
Lord, i love You.