People does change with time

There are a lot of time where people say things are hard to change especially when you are into someone and you will say ''I really likes her a lot. I will likes her for a long time'' or you can see scenario like ' a girl was in love with a guy and for such a long time she stay single but not available just for the guy. '

But, one day...

She will likes someone others. And it is not wrong to like others who is worthy for your love. I have to admit that I am the one who will change. And that's for sure. May be not as fast as some group of people or may be not as slow as some groups of people. But I do change.

I chose to love someone who is much more worthy to be loved.

However, people will also says that ' if you do not have feeling toward that someone, how could you be with them?'

There are too many case around me where they proven to me that when day goes by, feeling will turn up by itself. It may not necessarily as strong as the one you were suppose to choose before. But, you will be happier to be with. At least.

You...

You knew that I like you. But I was 'friendzone'. I wish your heart would change and turn to me. A big portion of hope which is enough to crash my heart into pieces.

It has been some time that I am into you. Almost a year since then. I also knew that you do not want to think about relationship. So I actually made the worst assumption that I will see you being taken by others in front of me. That is the worst feeling that someone could had!! I wish I do not have to face that kind of feeling. It is.......

These days, I was hard to get into sleep. Was thinking of you.Was trying my very best to help you. I remembered I said I wish to be your superman. Not just a batman. It sounds immature, but it is. Helping you is not to make you fall for me easier or whatever, I know you wont. Cause if it works, you were taken long long time ago. I just wanted you to have more rest and somehow, let you be 'little girl'.

And recently, I was trying to gain as much knowledge as I can. I wanted to be the one that you can rely on. I wanted to be the one that you can depend on. The real superman that you need.

I will change with time. My heart will turn. I will turn.


Written before 2pm 9th May 2013.

Talked with you for one and a half hours.

Cant say that I understand you more. But, I enjoy the talk. Enjoy when you can split it out. That was something that you rarely can do. That was something I appreciate much. That was something that I wish to happen. Open yourself. Not all. But at least a simple try.

Through out the talk, I realized. You were. You are strong. On the other hand, there is something in me that makes me think that you were who you are. Something that I thought shall helps you. I wanted to know you more. To be closer to you. To be the one you talk with. To be your 'superman'.

I really like the time we were there talking. I do not care if others needs me. I do not care if others looking for me. I wanted the best for me. I wanted the best to happen. I glad about it.

One last thing.

Something for you.

click here >>>> Reason to friendzone me?


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play the whole song

Next hug. I will be. For you. If you give me the chance within the time. Better life and better world will be in your palm. For you to enjoy.

Miss you.